*************************************************************************** pg. 1 Angelique Retour Secret Side Episode 4: Oscar Is a Condescending Asshole Who Tells Lumiale He's Garbage for 26 Pages, and the Manga Creators Totally Agree a.k.a. Do You Want Me to Hate Oscar, Ruby Party/Miko Mitsuki? Is That Why You're Doing This to Me? a.k.a. Self-Destructive Thought Patterns Are Totally Fucking Awesome a.k.a. Lumiale's Melancholy Days (Part 2) by Miko Mitsuki pg. 2 Lumi's Dad: You're a good boy, aren't you, Lumiale. You're always so quiet, and you do what you're told... No one is as kind as you. I'm proud of you, son. Lumiale [remembering childhood, thinking]: I never rebelled against my parents. Even if I had something to say, I always kept it to myself. --But... pg. 3 Lumiale [remembering childhood, thinking]: When my father became a famous painter, he hardly ever came back home. Even my mother's grief failed to move him. He left us. So did my two older brothers. Lumiale [remembering teenage years, thinking]: I had something I wanted to say. Lumiale [remembering childhood, thinking]: I could do nothing but follow them with my eyes. That girl, too... Lumiale [remembering teenage years, thinking]: But... pg. 4 Lumiale [thinking]: ...my words... ...don't always come across as I wish. At times, they create misunderstandings...and hurt others. And if I never see the other person again...well... so much the worse. Oscar [in flashback from, like, 10 seconds ago]: Running away - just like you've run from _everything_ important in your life. SFX: ::SPLASH:: ::WHOOSH:: pg. 5 Lumiale: Oscar... Oscar!! Lumiale [thinking]: He couldn't...! Not at this height! pg. 6 Lumiale [thinking]: He couldn't possibly be all right-- SFX: ::WHOOSH:: ::SPLASH:: pg. 7 Lumiale: ......... How could he... All for my sake...!... Oscar: HA HA! Quite a sight to see _you_ so frantic! Cool your jets. pg. 8 Oscar: If it's such an important memory for you, you shouldn't give it up so easily. SFX: ::SPLASH!:: Lumiale: ...! pg. 9 Lumiale: What were you _thinking?!_ You could have _died...!!_ _How...?!_ _HOW are you capable of such a thing?!_ Lumiale [thinking]: I don't understand... ...this man. Lumiale: You just met me... there's no need for you to go to such lengths! pg. 10 Lumiale [thinking]: I can't understand him at all! Oscar: I don't make my decisions based on whether I _need_ to do something. I do what I _want_ to do. I say what I _want_ to say. Lumiale: ----...! You...! pg. 11 Lumiale: But then you simply force your ideas on others - trod on others' feelings. Is that not overconfidence? Do you not think that your confidence could hurt others? SFX of Lumiale: ::GASP!:: Lumiale [thinking]: ...Why am I becoming so angry?... [I should note that throughout this conversation, Oscar is depicted as a calm adult, and Lumi looks like a petulant child.] Lumiale: ...I do not wish to fight with you... ...but...! Oscar: ...I see. You're afraid - of being hurt yourself when you hurt others. pg. 12 SFX: ::SPLASH...:: Oscar: You _pretend_ to be kind, but you're only protecting _yourself._ In the end, you're only looking out for number one, aren't you? [Oh, are we supposed to be blinded by Oscar's supposed psychological insight here? Fuck you, manga.] Lumiale [thinking]: No! I... Lumi's Dad [in flashback]: You're a good boy, aren't you, Lumiale. Lumi's Mom [in flashback]: Thank you - for thinking of me. You really are a kind boy... Lumiale [thinking]: I... pg. 13 Lumiale [thinking]: My father... My brothers... Why didn't they come back to us more often? Mother... I wanted to protect you - I didn't want to leave you. And to you, who remains nameless to me... I... SFX: ::SLIP:: Lumiale [thinking]: If I told you, it would lead only to pain. pg. 14 SFX: ::GRAB!:: Oscar: _LUMIALE!_ _DON'T YOU _DARE_ RUN AWAY!!_ _STAY HERE AND _FACE_ YOURSELF!!_ _REALIZE WHAT YOU ARE!!_ [Have you realized what _you_ are yet, Oscar? I don't want to hold bad writing against you, but: have you yet come to grips with the fact that you were contemplating rape in the first part of _your_ manga?] pg. 15 Oscar: The "kindness" that led you to try to help _me_, whom you _despise_ - the _weakness_ that was _powerless_ to deny my words - THEY'RE _YOUR_ POWERS - NOT MINE!! Just as you can do what I cannot - I can do what you cannot. PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER! *Guardian of Water.* pgs. 16-17 SFX: ::stumble:: Lumiale [thinking]: ...Maybe, somewhere within me... ...I just didn't want to realize how _weak_ I am. SFX: ::HALT:: Oscar: ! Lumiale [thinking]: That must be why... I was...just a little jealous of you. Oscar: Hey, hey...those stick arms of yours... SFX: ::GLOMP!:: pg. 18 Lumiale: Are _you_ all right? Oscar: ...!? S-- Sorry... (Let me down!) SFX: ::cheep cheep...:: Lumiale: ...Oscar... You also...have lost a lot in coming here, haven't you. ...You're so strong. pg. 19 Oscar: (Heh.) ...Well. I _am_ the Strength-Bringing Guardian of Fire, after all. Lumiale: I can't respect you... ...but I will thank you, Oscar. Lumiale [thinking]: If it is your role to do what I could never do... pg. 20 Lumiale [thinking]: ...then perhaps it is my role to do what you could never do. ...In fact, I know it is. pg. 21 Julious: The Sacrea of Water seems to be flowing throughout the universe unimpeded. ...You appear to have calmed yourself considerably, Lumiale. SFX: ::gasp:: Lumiale: Thank you very much, Julious-sama. Julious: That reminds me... Oscar appears to be quite worried about you. ...He seems to be concerned that you're spending so much time with Clavis. Lumiale [thinking]: ...So, back then...? Julious: But I think you'll be all right. pg. 22 Julious: Thanks to the sound of your harp, even _he_ is oversleeping less. I'll leave to rest to your judgment. Lumiale: Clavis-sama. You'll catch a cold staying in a place like this. Clavis: ..... Lumiale? I'll be fine. Play me a song. pg. 23 Lumiale: Of course. Lumiale [thinking]: I will never be strong. I can only trust in my own gentleness. Even so... pg. 24 Lumiale [thinking]: ...I don't think I'll lose sight of myself again. pg. 25 Lumiale [thinking]: And when I hesitate to speak... I will put my words into paint and song. [Lumiale's revelation in this manga is that he's weak and stupid and sucks. Are we supposed to take comfort in how Lumiale now will never forget that he's weak and stupid and sucks?] *************************************************************************** Translation by R. Capowski, 9/29/15; Angelique is the property of Koei/ Koei Tecmo/Tecmo Koei, by whom this document is not authorized, and fuck this manga.